~Hadn't posted a journal here recently so here is a rather being entry rather than several small ones~

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In thinking about the daily routine that I have set for myself weekly and even monthly too, I have come to realize that it will be coming to an unstoppable end at the end of this school year and somewhere in the beginning of the summer. I will be leaving the things and people that I have be able to come really know well, even in some cases come to trust in a way, and have gotten used to over the time that I have lived in the United States with my parents and my sister.

I will admit that sometimes I have been scared, confused, and even sometimes sad or angry or even a little bit depressed in fact of changes in my life and to the routine that I have become so so very used to doing with my life and myself. I've even managed to survive the transition from being a high school to becoming a freshman once more though this time in college for which I am proud of myself for. And now with this newest change that is quickly coming forward and making its way now into my life, yet in the ever so slow way that it is doing. So sometimes I will often wonder is that change really even a good thing?

I have tried to wish that time could slow down just enough so that the day doesn't come too fast and be too slow upon its arrival, but alas there doesn't ever seem to be that button or switch that could slow down time just ever so briefly.

I suppose that I should be accepting of this change since I will be seeing new things and experiencing them in another country entirely.

And yet... I guess that I'm a little hesitant to even think about being accepting of this situation, the change it will bring forth.

Why am I hesitating?

What is there for me to hesitate about this whole thing?

I know that I want to go and be with my family.. yet at the same time I am hesitating.. I don't understand why there is any hesitation at all.

I won't let this change or move put an end to my writing skills that I have begun to develop more over the years.. writing, reading, and being on my computer are my escape when I feel that reality is heading for a direction that I don't agree or think that I can really handle. So my stories definitely won't end without warning, though updates for them will be slow but definitely forth coming.

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Now I must share a concern and ask a question:

Most of what I own in my bedroom currently (i.e. clothes, music, books, collections, and randomly kept toys or papers) will either be a) joining me in the country where I will be living with my family for the next two years or b) Going into storage in another state that I think is paid for the government.

What is the best to pack up my Transformers to ensure that none of the current collection is broken, damaged, or completely destroyed?

I'm planning to keep some of them with me of course, like some or all of the mini TFs, TFA Jazz, Henkei G1 Prowl (who is apparently fragile).

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Well the Easter holiday was alright, twas eventful but not in a good way, Sunday started out relatively quiet and peaceful up until the night hour. Around 9ish or at least after 10, I got a call from my mother - is in D.C. that I need to take my sister to the hospital emergency room, cause it seems as though that there is something wrong with my sister's appendix.

So my aunt, my sister, and I drive to the nearest hospital emergency room where my sister signs herself in and we wait. I am silently and mentally freaking out at this point, despite being told via text messages by friends that I should be calm for my sister. How can I be calm when something like this happens that I've never experienced before? And my parents are still sort of freaking out over this.

To make a long story short: She doesn't have any problems with her appendix. And the doctor that we saw for her said that she should make an appointment to see her regular doctor, who we found out isn't in for the week but she got to see a different doctor.

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Current TF Collection:

Movies:

1 2007 Transformers movie dvd

Comics: 10

~The Transformers: Generations Volume 1
~Transformers: The Reign of Starscream
~Transformers: Spotlight #s 1 and 3
~All Hail Megatron #1
~Megatron Origin
~Movie Prequel: Saga of the Allspark
~Transformers War Within: The Dark Ages #2
~Transformers: Infiltration #1
~Transformers: Escalation #3

Toys: 15 (?)

~Henkei G1 Prowl
~Animated Jazz
~Universe Autobot Breakdown (Brakedown ?)
~Movie Legends Jazz
~G1 Autobot Hound
~Arcee
~Nightwatch Optimus Prime
~20th Anniversary Optimus Prime
~Animated Soundwave and Laserbeak
~G1 Blitzwing
~Decepticon Rumble
~07 movie Megatron
~07 movie Starscream
~Animated Starscream
~Animated Blackarchinia